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I am reading a book about how teens were shipped off by frustrated parents to "tough love" programs and boot camps, where they were cruelly abused (some were even killed!)
I truly sympathize with those unhappy kids, who were treated just like little troublemakers. (And they usually aren't; just a little depressed with the world at their age.)
Then I remember how the father had emotionally and sometimes, physically abused me over the years I was growing up. Then how he threatened to disown me (like, as young as 10?), have me sent away to live at some group home, and told me to get out of the house and never come back, too.
And I have fled from the home about 10 years ago to suffer brief homelessness, humiliation at hands of police, and risk of starvation.
Ok.
I am giving the father exactly what he wants: loss of a daughter.
And the family isn't exactly supportive, either. I was made to go to more, more, more college when I already wanted to be a cartoonist and an animator. I am still working on it, of course, but lately, I am so sleepy and depressed all the time that I haven't even been drawing for weeks lately.
Not only that; the sister was also abusive toward me. She would hit me, threaten to call police on me, and taunt me, too. I was once made to go live with her at her house, so I had fled from there twice; the second time for a few days. In fact, I have blocked her from my Facebook a few months ago.
The second sister is like an eternal teenager even though she's now about 33; she doesn't have a job and she hides in her room all the time. She even steals Coke and chips to stash away in her room. I've experienced some brief catfights with her over a few things when I spent one summer with the family.
The brother is okay, though and so is Mom, who is now caring and supportive toward me, though she did try to infantilize me and give me more money than I actually need (yes, her treatment toward me in the past is pretty damaging, too. Especially when I am hearing impaired, of course.)
I will just take the rest of my things from the house and not bother with the family anymore, though I will always have a close relationship with Mom. (She has given me lots of things, including a cell phone that I didn't want and even ordered me pizza from across the nation when I didn't have anything to eat. It was my own idea, BTW. ^_^)
I truly sympathize with those unhappy kids, who were treated just like little troublemakers. (And they usually aren't; just a little depressed with the world at their age.)
Then I remember how the father had emotionally and sometimes, physically abused me over the years I was growing up. Then how he threatened to disown me (like, as young as 10?), have me sent away to live at some group home, and told me to get out of the house and never come back, too.
And I have fled from the home about 10 years ago to suffer brief homelessness, humiliation at hands of police, and risk of starvation.
Ok.
I am giving the father exactly what he wants: loss of a daughter.
And the family isn't exactly supportive, either. I was made to go to more, more, more college when I already wanted to be a cartoonist and an animator. I am still working on it, of course, but lately, I am so sleepy and depressed all the time that I haven't even been drawing for weeks lately.
Not only that; the sister was also abusive toward me. She would hit me, threaten to call police on me, and taunt me, too. I was once made to go live with her at her house, so I had fled from there twice; the second time for a few days. In fact, I have blocked her from my Facebook a few months ago.
The second sister is like an eternal teenager even though she's now about 33; she doesn't have a job and she hides in her room all the time. She even steals Coke and chips to stash away in her room. I've experienced some brief catfights with her over a few things when I spent one summer with the family.
The brother is okay, though and so is Mom, who is now caring and supportive toward me, though she did try to infantilize me and give me more money than I actually need (yes, her treatment toward me in the past is pretty damaging, too. Especially when I am hearing impaired, of course.)
I will just take the rest of my things from the house and not bother with the family anymore, though I will always have a close relationship with Mom. (She has given me lots of things, including a cell phone that I didn't want and even ordered me pizza from across the nation when I didn't have anything to eat. It was my own idea, BTW. ^_^)
Getting ready to clear off my desk.
I will take all my graphic novels (it's a HUGE collection, BTW!) that were sitting on my old desk and stack them on my new shelves.
Then I clean up the desk and put drawers back in it. I also put more shelves behind the desk.
And I will be ready to DRAW again! :lol: (I think I burned out back in 2015, which is when I quit drawing for quite a long time.)
Unfortunately, I will have to buy a new keyboard for my old computer as well as Internet. ^^;
But I may get it at discount next month.
So for time being, I draw and draw and draw!!! (I still have many roughs for Powerpuff Girls fancomics to do, of course.)
I may ask some of you to color
Old man wants to finish me off.
He is scheming to make me a nice little schoolteacher if I try to come back to California.
So he could lose me as a daughter. :unimpressed:
(Getting my work ready to be punished as soon as possible.)
Reported art theft at Amazon.
It should be removed soon. :)
Oh, and I am getting a new desk chair for my birthday, too.
Then I will have my old computer repaired if I don't manage to turn it on by myself. ^_^
How'd my Powerpuff Girls art end up on a TOWEL?!
Found it while browsing on Amazon for stuff to get on my coming birthday. :O_o:
My Fanart On Towel
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I soo sorry about your family, i wish you the best, stay string and be able to follow your dreams