I keep falling asleep the last few years, leaving me awake very few hours a day most of the time.
And I also seem to sleep 12 hours a day, too.
I thought I was just being lazy at first.
But lately, I am taking longer and longer between showering and washing dishes. (It's been 3 days or more since I last did both.)
I have not changed the calendar to June last year and now I haven't changed the calendar to July yet.
I haven't cut all of my toenails yet or changed the broken light bulb in the bathroom since last month.
And I haven't been drawing ANYTHING in ages, either.
I don't even have the energy to watch a single anime episode on Netflix most of the time.
I have been trying to clean my apartment since last year and now it looks like a junkyard. (Been sleeping on floor because of the broken futon bed...the new one is coming in the mail soon, BTW.)
Just yesterday, I woke at like, 1pm and started getting tired at 4pm. Finally, I went to bed at 8pm and slept a little. Then I read some books, too sleepy to get up or do anything.
Then I got up briefly at like, 1:30am in morning, but even then, I couldn't stay awake. So back to bed I went.
And now I have gotten up at 1pm today. At least I took shower just now.
Mom is very
concerned about me. She wanted to come to New York to help me, but I told her, "Not yet."
And I have made an appointment with a doctor, who would see what's wrong with me.
I want to save my own life and my future, too.
At least I am a bit more alert right now.
Perhaps not for very long, I'm afraid.