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  • Mood: Angsty
I am reading a book about how teens were shipped off by frustrated parents to "tough love" programs and boot camps, where they were cruelly abused (some were even killed!)

I truly sympathize with those unhappy kids, who were treated just like little troublemakers. :( (And they usually aren't; just a little depressed with the world at their age.)

Then I remember how the father had emotionally and sometimes, physically abused me over the years I was growing up. Then how he threatened to disown me (like, as young as 10?), have me sent away to live at some group home, and told me to get out of the house and never come back, too.

And I have fled from the home about 10 years ago to suffer brief homelessness, humiliation at hands of police, and risk of starvation.

Ok.

I am giving the father exactly what he wants: loss of a daughter. :unimpressed:

And the family isn't exactly supportive, either. I was made to go to more, more, more college when I already wanted to be a cartoonist and an animator. I am still working on it, of course, but lately, I am so sleepy and depressed all the time that I haven't even been drawing for weeks lately. :hmm:

Not only that; the sister was also abusive toward me. She would hit me, threaten to call police on me, and taunt me, too. I was once made to go live with her at her house, so I had fled from there twice; the second time for a few days. In fact, I have blocked her from my Facebook a few months ago.

The second sister is like an eternal teenager even though she's now about 33; she doesn't have a job and she hides in her room all the time. She even steals Coke and chips to stash away in her room. I've experienced some brief catfights with her over a few things when I spent one summer with the family.

The brother is okay, though and so is Mom, who is now caring and supportive toward me, though she did try to infantilize me and give me more money than I actually need (yes, her treatment toward me in the past is pretty damaging, too. Especially when I am hearing impaired, of course.)

I will just take the rest of my things from the house and not bother with the family anymore, though I will always have a close relationship with Mom. (She has given me lots of things, including a cell phone that I didn't want and even ordered me pizza from across the nation when I didn't have anything to eat. It was my own idea, BTW. ^_^)
  • Mood: Movingon
I am actually somewhat depressed right now.

I am sad that I have to give up Woody Woodpecker because of secret jealousy issues, but it's for best. I really enjoyed loving and hugging and kissing a cute, feathery bird the size of Mickey Mouse in my dreams. I wanted him all to myself. Perhaps I post what completed artwork I have left of him before I put Woody stuff away for good?

And as for the other fandoms like Powerpuff Girls and Transformers, I would never dream of leaving them behind, too. :unimpressed: I'm just not as obsessed right now, but I am still devoted nevertheless.

But some of you don't seem to care about that - as long as I still put up art here, right? Even if they just consist of a boring old sketch of apples in chalks or some model's cellulite-ridden ass, maybe?

If I lose interest in DA, of course I will leave here. But no, I still have lots of stuff I still want to post here - not only of PPGs and Transformers, but also of Roger Rabbit and Jessica, Disney characters, Looney Tunes characters, etc. And yes, some anime satire as well.

It's just that I'm not very productive lately. :shrug: In fact, I am forcing myself to post a few PPG fanart you are seeing these days and I am not satisfied enough with anything at all from how well I color or paint to how the art looks once scanned. I'm simply down in the dumps lately.

That should change soon. I am cleaning the apartment and setting things right, too. Then I will get busy with drawings and stories.

And of course, I still want to share fanart with you. I just don't feel up to it right now. :bored:  
  • Mood: Unhappy
I'm not as much of a Powerpuff Girls or Transformers fan as I have been in the past. :hmm:

In fact, I'm not interested in anything right now.
  • Mood: Neutral
I have been drawing him - because I had a crush on him.

But he's evidently "spoken for", though he's also an unabashed skirt chaser. :roll:

I actually prefer my cartoon crush to be mostly "fancy-free" so I can enjoy the illusion of having him all to myself. :shrug:

Most of my old Woody fanart will still be up, of course. But I am removing those where I depict myself with Woody, though.

Too bad, but Woody (especially his 1960s version) is very cute. :hmm: So it would be about five years next week, BTW. :aww:

And lately, I am more interested in Donald Duck's handsome but self-serving cousin, Gladstone Gander. :drool:

So you are going to see plenty of Gladstone fanart pretty soon, though I am not going to draw, let alone imagine myself with him. :P 

Of course, there will always be Powerpuff Girls and Transformers fanart, too. ^_^
  • Mood: Angsty
I am reading a book about how teens were shipped off by frustrated parents to "tough love" programs and boot camps, where they were cruelly abused (some were even killed!)

I truly sympathize with those unhappy kids, who were treated just like little troublemakers. :( (And they usually aren't; just a little depressed with the world at their age.)

Then I remember how the father had emotionally and sometimes, physically abused me over the years I was growing up. Then how he threatened to disown me (like, as young as 10?), have me sent away to live at some group home, and told me to get out of the house and never come back, too.

And I have fled from the home about 10 years ago to suffer brief homelessness, humiliation at hands of police, and risk of starvation.

Ok.

I am giving the father exactly what he wants: loss of a daughter. :unimpressed:

And the family isn't exactly supportive, either. I was made to go to more, more, more college when I already wanted to be a cartoonist and an animator. I am still working on it, of course, but lately, I am so sleepy and depressed all the time that I haven't even been drawing for weeks lately. :hmm:

Not only that; the sister was also abusive toward me. She would hit me, threaten to call police on me, and taunt me, too. I was once made to go live with her at her house, so I had fled from there twice; the second time for a few days. In fact, I have blocked her from my Facebook a few months ago.

The second sister is like an eternal teenager even though she's now about 33; she doesn't have a job and she hides in her room all the time. She even steals Coke and chips to stash away in her room. I've experienced some brief catfights with her over a few things when I spent one summer with the family.

The brother is okay, though and so is Mom, who is now caring and supportive toward me, though she did try to infantilize me and give me more money than I actually need (yes, her treatment toward me in the past is pretty damaging, too. Especially when I am hearing impaired, of course.)

I will just take the rest of my things from the house and not bother with the family anymore, though I will always have a close relationship with Mom. (She has given me lots of things, including a cell phone that I didn't want and even ordered me pizza from across the nation when I didn't have anything to eat. It was my own idea, BTW. ^_^)

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Spitfire
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Current Residence: Want to move soon.
Favourite style of art: Sequential art.
Shell of choice: Something that you can listen to the sea inside.
Skin of choice: Smooth, pore-free.
Favourite cartoon character: Woody Woodpecker, Transformers, PPGs, Piccolo, Tom Cat, Mickey Mouse, and Jessica Rabbit.
Personal Quote: I have plenty to eat.
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LuanaSpinetti Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Just stopping by to leave a 'hi!' :wave: (sorry, it rhymes xD)
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Ameban Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2015  Professional General Artist
Hiya there BlackHellCat! Thank you for the :+fav: on my "Thunderbuster" pic :)
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ArwingPilot114 Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happiest of Birthdays to you m'dear! :wave: :party:
I hope you had tons of fun filled with transformers and power puff girls! :D
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Emeowrald Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2015
Happy Birthday. :cake: :cake: :party: 
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Happy birthday 
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:party: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! :party:
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happy birthday :)
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Happy Birthday!:iconchococakeplz:
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Happy Birthday! :party::iconcakeplz::w00t:

I shall drink to your health
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